Being unemployed is hard. Well, duh. Know what that can be worse? Being unemployable with an overpriced University education and crushing debt which will take me at least a decade to pay off, more so if said unemployment continue. Some people graduate with presents showered upon them like a reward for going through a terrible hardship. Others hold on to the end, the Walk as the solo reward for not falling apart or giving in to stress induced eating disorders, socially and financially induced mental/emotional problems or escapism of the drug and alcoholic kinds.
Even so, these doesn't matter. It seems to me that the real test of one's strength and sanity comes not from trying to graduate but from trying to get one's life started after all that tedious preparation.
Before I went to University, I had a Diploma in Film production. I then went on to secure a pretty decent job in a Post production house. But yet I still dreamed of working in the business side of Television. However it was impossible because I didn't have a BFA. So I was faced with a dilemma. Should I stay with my fast rising career in the post production industry as I had mastered all the specific technical skills or shall I take a chance, get heavily in debt and pursue a BFA which is the supposed gateway to more lucrative and desirable opportunities?
I honestly think that an education is necessary as Knowledge is power. I've learned how American politics work, which in turn allow me to be better informed when making decisions about things affecting my life. I've learned to be a better person to other people from all the blunders from unfamiliar socializing events/situations. I've learned self control and mental discipline when it comes to temptations. I know I'm lucky, I appreciate all I've been allowed to experience and I know I'll land on my feet regardless. Plenty of mistakes were made when I was in University but none I regret for priceless life lessons were learned but this current wasteland of dying hopes after countless cover letters and job applications might just do me in. I already have the ambition and the dedication - which is part of my genetic programming as exemplified by my relentless hunting - and have acquired the skills and the education, yet it seems it's not enough. I am extremely grateful to even be able to go to college yet right now, I can't help feeling indignant that it is costing me so much already both financially and mentally which makes my biggest fear about it continuing to do so till I no longer see the decision I made years ago as something I do not regret.
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