It was a good day. It was a work day but I had the day off so I decided that I would spend the day doing nothing at all or anything I wanted. The food I ordered came and it was extremely delightful. The videos on youtube were funny and they made me laugh. Then I took a nap, gleeful that I could do this when everyone I knew was busy at work.
But then night came. I have a difficult relationship with nighttime. It gives me the most tranquil peace and the darkest thoughts.
People like to say, "You deserve to be happy". But in my case, happiness always come at a price. Happiness is an appetizer for the Demons to come and feast on later when all the dopamine is spent. So now I'm left with nothing- feeling nothing but the puffiness of my eyes and a hollow memory of a good day.
Tomorrow will be another good day.