Evil comes from within

Turn a blind eye so that you won't see the suffering,

feel the riches and your pride

Turn a blind eye so that you won't see the red

feel the warmth fading and the last sigh

Turn a blind eye so that you can close the other at night

feel the nothingness and the blackness

creep into your soul and mind.

How do you love bitterness?

How do you love someone, learn to accept someone and try not to judge them for who they are just because you made the decision to allow them into your life a while back with full knowledge of who they are? To be the light and the positivity in their life because they have so much good in them but it's buried under such disdain and bitterness. To not allow the ugliness rub off onto you yet to not let them feel resentful when you refuse to get sucked into the tirade of darkness.

I've cut people out of my life before, it wasn't easy or pretty but with someone I have so much history with, it's not an option. Yet every time when he belittle my experiences with madness I flinch. It's not a window I open to just anyone and for him to brush them off as 'looking for attention' hurts on so many levels, wrong on so many folds, all the Love I have for him gets infected by his pain, anger and hate.

And I have to stop. Breathe. And remember.

Thanks for the light

I believe there's a God. In fact, to be more specific, I believe there's One True God, a singlar power of pure goodness. However, I do not believe there's a Devil. Most people usually gasp disapprovingly at this 'selective' believing, insisting that if you believe in one manifestation, the other is a must. Like a bottle of wine and a wine opener, one cannot exist with meaning without the other. Don't get me wrong, I believe Evil exist. Evil, like Goodness, is a potential energy, a result of an act that people choose to do or an inclination of one's nature. I just don't think that there is a mystical individual who is the corporeal entity of Evil.

To me, God is a different story compared to those told by men. God is the creator, the watcher and the Judge in the court of appeals. God starts/create things and watches as it ends, as how all things must for new things to be begin. When we are at peace with it, we call it 'running its natural course'. When we are not happy about it, we call it 'bad things happening'. And sometimes, it's because the collision of humans' choices/decisions and nature's behavior just simply came to a head. It sucks but it is what it is.

However, I believe that whenever God intervenes, God only does so as the Judge in the court of appeals. In other words, when The Singlar Power of Pure Goodness intervenes, only good things happen and miracles are the result.

I know God exist because when things get bad, somehow something will happen, out of the blue and of a impossible mathematical possibility, that will shine a tiny light into the darkness. And that small ray of light sometimes is just enough for one to see the path, albiet full of rocks and hurts one's feet, but at least one notices the cliff one is about to walk over.

So whenever The Singlar Power of Pure Goodness intervenes, I give thanks for two things - thanks for reminding me that you are here and thanks for the light.

I get by with a little help from my friend

Let not this anger infect my heart,
let not this fear consume my soul.
Dear Lord, Father in Heaven,
I turn to thee,
down on my knees.
I yield to your wisdom
for you are God Almighty.
But if You see it fit,
please be gentle with me?